JAMES MORSE

I’m having a decent day. It’s a beautiful Fall day, and I met my dad for lunch. We went for a walk at the mountain which was refreshing.

He’s been having some symptoms and we’re still waiting to hear back from the doctor regarding his medical status. It definitely has given me a sense of sadness to know that he has some sort of condition and he’s suffering from something substantial. We’ll have to wait and see about a diagnosis though. Dad is one of my biggest role models, and despite his shortcomings, I see him as a truly genuine, kind, wise human being.

I see him, his personality traits, in me more and more every day. I guess I would describe him as tender, sensitive, kind, and willing to listen. I hope that I am someone who is also willing to listen to others.

I think in the discomfort of becoming aware of my parents’ age, I’ve tried to distract myself with work, sometimes straying onto articles online or social media.

What is it that I am ultimately after? What is the nature of the connection I so desperately crave?

There is so much to be said, but at the moment, I don’t quite have the words. Maybe they will come out in a future blog post.