JAMES MORSE

i’m feeling a bit anxious, but not too much. ever since i stopped really drinking alcohol for exodus, i’ve noticed a dramatic increase in energy and awareness throughout the day. i can even get up earlier than usual, which i’ve been trying to do for years. i think there’s a lot of truth in the science, and Jordan Peterson’s recommendation, of refraining from alcohol as a means to peaceful living.

despite a lot of the anxiety causing features of life, growing older, watching others grow older, the difficulties of marriage and family life, the tedium of the everyday grind at work… i am very fortunate to be where i am. i feel like i am actualizing my best self, living my best life right now.

i’m trying very hard to be intentional about what i do with my time. i’m definitely not perfect, but i think i am trying to be meaningful with all the seconds of the day. i’ve tried to abandon the policy of escapism that i’ve so often employed in the face of life’s difficulties. when i let go of my coping mechanisms, there is an incredible discomfort at first, but then, the intense feelings begin to subside, and my vision clears.

i hope i can continue to walk in this light and peace today.

may God bless me and my family and friends. thank you, God, so much for them.